*deep sigh* and some more sighs...

[hearteststill]

I've been thinking too much lately...about lots of different things...i'm just so confused by so many things, and don't know how to say stuff like that to people without bringing them down...i don't know what to think about things...and maybe i'm not "ready" for certain things... i don't know...i'm just really confused, and don't know how to talk about certain things with certain people...and i hate that about myself...
what i would give to be somewhere else right now... I don't want to seem like I'm just doting either...that's why i was distant to them...and they know who they are... I just want to know how they feel...what they feel for me...what they want... and I can't ask that... i always think i end up sounding angry or something like that when I'm not at all...more just inquisitive, wanting to know how they feel...
I want to say what I feel, what I think...but can't...and i'm sorry...