distant but hyperactive...

[hearteststill]

I'm sitting here listening to Limp Bizkit...and can't help but be bouncy and hyper...I saw them live on Tuesday, and it was a blast, but I felt like i needed to be there with someone else the entire time...i mean, amber is awesome and a great friend and we get along cool most of the time, but i felt like i needed to be there with someone else...someone i truly love and adore...but i also kinda feel distant...i didn't notice until someone said something, but it's just the concert thing and that feeling of something missing...maybe it's love, maybe it's something else...i truly don't know...i'd like it to go away but not everyone gets what they want...
..i do feel bad for having that major fight with kacie...it was bad...she said max (my buddy) was talking shit about me behind my back because 'her sister is friends with max' ...it may be true, but i don't want to think about it...it sucks people do that...and the whole fight ended in she didn't want to ever talk anymore...it totally sucked...and i was happy though too...i mean, i was like her little pet...i turned down a blind date with someone who was in the closet totally and she got angry because "she found me someone that was in town" and i don't care...i'd rather really like someone that makes me happy no matter where they are than go out with someone who was severely in the closet and has lots of crap happen...my parents arent totally kosher with me yet anyways so it's not like i want to lie to them...even though i have a lot...what they don't know can't hurt them...that saying is wrong...but oh well...it's too late now to do anything about kacie...and it's fine with me...
"I know why you wanna hate me, now i know why you wanna hate me, cause hey...it's all the world has ever seen lately"~limp bizkit....

alright...enough venting for now...nothing more to say right now...more later maybe..~